January - Mixed feelings

I'm an optimist. And (as almost every year) I was confident that 2025 would hold great things for me. My optimism faded quickly.

I began the year with mixed feelings. I was so excited by so many things and feared so many at the same time.

I’m an optimist. And (as almost every year) I was confident that 2025 would hold great things for me. My optimism faded quickly. Turns out, freelancing holds a whole new set of challenges - mental ones. Loosing a client just before Christmal meant that from a business perspective I felt rather shaky. Although we had found a new client, for the long term that wouldn’t be enough.

I suddenly developed sleep problems. Woke up during night, had nightmares, felt stressed during the day. So much in my head. I knew I had to reframe.

Easier said than done.

But I tried. I tried hard. Focussed on solutions rather than on possible future scenarios that might never happen.

“Worrying is like worshipping the problem”.

I can’t remember where I read this, but having this phrase in the back of my mind helped me to restructure the thoughts in my head.


Towards the end of the month I was walking down the stairs in our house, phone in my hand, missed the last step. Rolled my ankle. Fell. The pain was like nothing I’ve experienced before. I was sure the foot must be broken.

Second thought: Oh no, what about skiing?! Funny how the brain works. After some time of trying to calm myself down a litte, I realised the foot was most likely not broken, which an x-ray at the local hospital confirmed. ‘Just’ a sprained ankle.

Seems funny, that one of the main priorities I wrote down for this year is my health. Straight in there with an injury. But I am making an effort of not letting it get to me. Foot up, frozen peas on.

Lots of healthy food, no wailing, trying to stay positive. I’m a firm believer that the mind can help the healing process.

Trying to practice gratitude. Because although this is a s*** situation, and it feels like my normal life has been put on hold, I’m so lucky in other respects. And I am grateful for that.


Things I’ve enjoyed this month:

The best comes last

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